TY - JOUR T1 - Beautiful blessing JF - Medical Humanities JO - J Med Humanit SP - e12 LP - e12 DO - 10.1136/medhum-2012-010233 VL - 38 IS - 2 AU - Victoria Ann Ribbons Y1 - 2012/12/01 UR - http://mh.bmj.com/content/38/2/e12.abstract N2 - I am so happy. Blooming they call it. We worry about you - mummy must still take her tablets. To make her better, to keep us safe. We stare at you on the screen, Our bouncing bean. Our precious little girl. I do not know why but sadness encompasses me It drowns me, it steals my bloom. One minute you're there in my belly I know you're there, constantly jabbing, reminding me I don't quite know what I think of you but You can't come out yet, you're too small - Everywhere is in pain, all over, all-consuming pain My head aches, my body hurts, you're killing me. My body bulges. I want you out, I want it over. Hurry up. I am laid out on my back. White. Sterile smell. Tugging, pulling, fighting. Talking. You are torn out of me 3 months too early I glimpse you, you are rushed away. You live in a box, I don't see you for 3 days Everyone else does. You're beautiful, I'm told, a real fighter. I didn't want you out, I didn't want it over. It's too … ER -