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1 General Practitioner, St Marys, Isles of Scilly TR21 0NE, UK
2 27 Rue de la Boussinière, F 72000 Le Mans, France
Correspondence to:
D Jeffries
Top Flat, Rocky Hill, St Marys, Isles of Scilly TR21 0NE, UK; djeffries{at}onetel.com
Accepted for publication 10 January 2006
| ABSTRACT |
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Keywords: medical education; ethics; care; professionalism
I first came across the work of Martin Winckler about six years ago, and was intrigued enough by a book review to get hold of a copy of Wincklers novel, La Maladie de Sachs. The novel proved to be an unexpected bestseller, was chosen by readers for the Prix du Livre Inter, has sold 600 000 copies in France alone, was made into an acclaimed film, and has been translated into several languages, including English. The English translation, The Case of Dr Sachs, was published in 2000. The novel is recommended reading in many European medical schools and in the American medical community, yet, it has not had the success that it richly deserves in the UK. This is something of a puzzle, as the portrait that it paints of a compassionate, complex, and committed rural general practitioner is one that we can easily recognise and sympathise with, and one that owes an explicit debt to the ideals of the Balint school so beloved of educators in general practice in the UK.
Winckler has also published detective fiction, commentaries on television series and American comic books that occupy a prominent place in his personal cultural interests, and collections of essays on medical and medicopolitical topics. He has also broadcast regularly on French radio. He continues to work in family planning and has written the first French textbook on the subject, which is accessible to patients and doctors alike. Most recently, he has returned to his alter ego, Dr Bruno Sachs, to recount his days as a medical student, under the title Les Trois Médecins. The allusion to Alexandre Dumass great historical adventure, The Three Musketeers is deliberate, and Winckler shamelessly borrows characters from The Three Musketeers and follows its plot precisely, transposing them to a 1970s French medical school. Readers do not need to be familiar with Dumass novel to appreciate Wincklers, although I imagine that it may add to the entertainment value and excuse some of its more melodramatic moments.
On reading Les Trois Médecins, I was so struck by one passage that I attempted a translation, which I sent to Martin Winckler for his interest, and to see whether he would give me permission to seek its publication. To my delight he was enthusiastic, and helped me with some of the more colloquial phrases. The result is a loose translation that attempts to remain faithful to the spirit of the original, but uses idiomatic English when it seems more natural. Martin has kindly added some explanation of the passage and set it in context. We hope that it will prove stimulating in its own right, and lead some readers at least to seek out more of Wincklers work.
| EXPLANATORY COMMENTS (MW) |
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| THE TRANSLATION |
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"You know why Im laughing?"
I raise my arm, I point.
"Because twenty five years ago, I was sitting right there. And on the other side, down there (I point to a place further away), there was a girlI Got You, Babewho I was dying to sit next to...only there were thirty guys in my way!"
Its their turn to laugh; they understand me: I may be crazy, but its a change from the usual starched profs who come and speak here. I havent prepared anything; Ive been ready for so long. I havent come to give them a lecture; Ive come to tell them what I havent been able to say till now. I dont know quite whats coming; I only know what I would like to tell them. Theres so much and I cant say it all. What do my friends expect?
That in two hours I can tell them everything theyre going to spend ten years learning? I cant do it: Im not even sure that I can tell them the bare essence, given that I hardly know it, given that Im only just beginning to see it, now that the words are no longer stuck in my throat, now that Ive started to write again. I can try to tell them: I know what they keep telling you: "You wont all be doctors".i
But I dont give a damn about that, it hardly matters that some of you will be admitted to medical school and others wont. If you want to care, you will care, as doctor, nurse, physio or whatever. Today, if youre sitting here its because youre all potential care givers, and thats why Im speaking to you, laying out the simple things, the ideas, ultimately, that Ive embraced since adolescence, the pent up anger thats begging to be released, all that Ive suffered, all that they are going to make you suffer: the feudalism of medical education, the archaicism of the teaching methodsii
the criminal hierarchy of the hospital, the inept competition thats built up between students and continues between care givers, the bloody struggle for power, the mutual mistrust, the arrogance, the vanity of which your elders are evidence, of which you yourselves will perhaps be evidence, all that theyre not going to be told in their studies: the confused reasons for becoming a doctor, the obligatory motives: I want to look after people, the innocent desires that know nothing of life, the fears exactly the same, no more, no less, as those of the people youre going to be looking after, without ever forgetting what the powers that be would like to make them forgettheir deepest feelings, their hidden pains, their unconscious need to care for themselves and to heal unwittingly their own sufferingsarchaic, familial, unknownhidden in their own depths; the appetite for revenge, the everyday sadism, the taste for dominance that so many doctors dont know that they carry in themselves, or pretend not to know. Diseases are abstract concepts that have nothing to do with the individual person; nobody is reducible to a diagnostic grill, however sophisticated it might be; and what counts in life, is not so much health as meaning, and thats something a lot of doctors completely fail to understand. You will always be caught between the corrupt ideology, our own, that our "masters" have inculcated in us, and the insistent, irreducible personality, the authentic selfhood of the people who confide in us. Because, to care for people, you have to know the world we live in: the real world, abject, unfeeling and brutal; the alienating job, the all consuming family; social injustice, misery, war .... There are two things above all that they wont talk to you about here, at least not in asking what they mean for you, and these are sex and deathyou who are listening to me, there are eight hundred, a thousand of you; do you really believe that not one of you will be dead by the end of the year? I hear them murmuring: "I cant believe it! Whats he up to, does he want to bring us bad luck?" Its not a threat nor a prediction, not a curse nor a probability: its a reality, because within the last fortnight two of your comrades have killed themselves....Yes indeed, most of you dont know about it, but if you dont know, how can you help their friends, those who do know and are torn apart and are weeping and are petrified by seeing someone disappear who was alive a few weeks ago? And even if you couldnt care less because you didnt know them, I would be surprised if no one close to you, maybe in your own family, had died. When you become a doctor you think you can care for those you loveparents, friends, lovers, childrenthat you can spare them from death; but for certain everyone sees those close to them suffer and die, sometimes without being able to do anything, you just like all the rest. And if you dont think about death, about your own death, in six months, in twenty years, in bed or in a car, with a drip in your arm or under a train, too young or too old, all alone or loved and supported, how do you expect to understand what people will tell you when they come to talk about their death or the death of their loved ones? As for sex ...I can see their ears prick up and thats not allthats how human life is made. Its a cocktail of desires, frustrations, attractions, reasons, expectations, meetings, departures, joy, sadness, happiness and, with luck, pleasure. There are eight hundred or a thousand of you here, dont tell me youre all virgins, of course theyll start shouting and the song will ring out "Lets all cheer/Doctor Sachss a dandy/Still feeling randy/Still feeling randy ..."iii
...But what are you thinking, do you believe Ive forgotten that when I was your age, it was enough for me to come across a low neckline to feel randyit still happens! And if some of you have been having sex for a long time others may do it for the first time tonight or this afternoon in the empty flat when the parents are away, I want you so much, Im frightened but I want to, lets make love, lets make love? Itll be good for us or in a year and some are content and some are forced into it and if you dont think about what it means, about the place that sex occupies in your life, how do you expect to understand what it is that people come to tell you. How can I tell them clearly that to care is not, it is not in any way to wear a white coat and a stethoscope, to imbibe books and recipes and lessons in ethics and conduct. To care does not have anything to do with competence or ethics or titles, nor is it gaining knowledge to win power: power is deadly while to care is the same as to love to educate to share to bring up to accompany to carry to guide, its living its vibrant its good its warm its tender like the mouth of the lover who murmurs and who breathes warmth and cold on our embracing bodies to care is to move towards the other, because its the other who teaches us, its the other who tells us where the pain lies, where the relief is to be found, and if Ive learnt to care, however little it may be, to build a few derisory but worthwhile defences against suffering its thanks to others who have shown me, to care is to respect, the doctor who treats other care givers as underlings is a bastard, the doctor who guards knowledge without sharing it with those who need it is a crook, the doctor who uses his white coat his title his stethoscope to exercise power is a criminal, the doctor who reserves his loyalty for his colleagues is a felon. To care is to take action and support the cause of those who suffer, it is to be, first and foremost, loyal to oneself, toward ones ideals, toward those for whom one cares, be it even against ones colleagues. The doctor who respects himself and respects others isnt content to carry out what hes been taught in a servile way but asks himself every day if he couldnt do betterwithout pretending hes God Almighty.
Because theres no such thing.
Because theres only us in this immense universe, the universe of suffering ....
How can I tell them all that without getting lost?
How can I tell them that to care, one cant learn it with a pen on a page, but with eyes on the lips and fingers on the skin and ones mouth by the ear and my body on your body ...?
How can I tell them that caring is like living, you dont wait until youve learned, you do it right away!
How can I tell them that caring is something you learn from othersall the others: those whom one admires, those whom one detests, those who make us sick and those who attract us, those who frighten us and mistreat us, those who support us and those who are hostile, our friends and our enemies, our brothers and our sisters, those who are sitting here around us and that we dont know, and who all have something to tell us if only we were willing to lend them an ear, if only we were willing to lend them a hand.
How can I tell them that one learns to care by being oneself because everything is here, in my body made to enjoy and made to suffer, identical to the others body, and its there alone that we can draw from to understand what the fuck weredoing here. Because your body, my other half, is always foreign to me even if I lose myself in it, and its in my own bodyand only in my ownthat I feel, that I know if you suffer, if you enjoy, if I care for you or if I torment you!
How can I tell them that caring is like writing: its something one does all the time, just by being aware of those around us, thinking every second about the other person and what makes them suffer and what might perhaps make them feel better.
How can I tell them that one cares as one writes: with ones desire, with ones anger!
I dont know how Im going to tell them all that. I dont know if what I have to say will mean anything to them. I dont know if set against the lectures of all the mandarins, of all the teachers whove taken this lectern, my ramblings will carry any weight. I know that theyll be told: Once a doctor, always a doctor, and Ill tell them: its false. Dont forget: you havent always been a doctor! I know that theyll be told: In every doctor theres a scientist, a care giver, a teacher, and Ill tell them: perhaps, but never let knowledge muzzle your feelings, dont quibble at the expense of those who are in pain, and never ever forget that inside each care giver there are three persons: the one who feels, the one who doubts, the one who shares. Dont forget, in the end: there are not doctors on the one hand and everyone else on the other, there are only lives and the words of human beings, those who speak them, those who read them and speak them in their turn ....
... I dont know how Ill tell them all that, nor even if Ill manage to say the half of it, but as Ive got to begin somewhere, Ill begin by telling them:
Good morning. My names Bruno Sachs and, like all of you herebut for me its been for thirty yearsI am learning to become someone who cares ...."
| SELECTED BIBLIOGRAPHY OF MARTIN WINCKLER |
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The Case of Dr Sachs. Seven Stories Press, 2000.
En Soignant, en Écrivant. Indigènes éditions, 2000.
Cest Grave, Docteur? La Martinière, 2002.
Contraceptions Mode dEmploi [2nd ed]. Le Diable Vauvert, 2003.
Les Trois Médecins. POL éditeur, 2004.
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ii "Enseignement magistral": literally, the teaching in an auditorium by a teacher who will not accept any interaction from his students, still common practice in French medical schools. ![]()
iii The song is one that students usually sing when a teacher makes an innuendo (voluntary or not) in one of his classes. ![]()
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